Well well, cant see much hope for tonight. everyone seems to decide they dont want to do anything at the very last minute. it is 11:25PM, and it’s at this time people decided to text me back telling me that they are all of a sudden to tired to do things, no money, blah blah. But of course they would be tired at this time. It is almost midnight, but what I don’t get is why they didn’t tell me this hours ago when I asked what’s up. Though I’m too tired (mentally) to feel frustrated about it all, it’s all too common now, it just flows over me, so it’s just like oh, alright. moving on.

What this really is all about is that I’m too preoccupied during the whole day, so just a small bit of me inside thinks that something would go down tonight, that my friends out there are thinking about tonight and what we would do, guess not. People actually like staying indoors all week long. I used to be that, it just got old.

I just finished watching Fight Club for the 3rd time (hence the blog quote), and it never gets old. I can probably say it’s one of my favorite movies of all time. I’m not sure what the movie’s underlying message is, but the way I interpreted it was, other than vadalism, it’s that you just gotta do what you wanna do. Everyone wants to be something. Everyone wants to do something. Break from the mundane routine and get out, cause take it from me, it will creep on you. You get numb.

Maybe this was just my odd way to tie it my slight frustration. I got a problem taking my own advice sometimes and complaining about the same thing over and over, but I’m working on it.